Well it has been almost two months since my last post! Way to long! I am trying to balance so much right now and I find myself either laughing or crying at any given moment- craziness is happening! I am now finishing up my bachelors degree, working part-time in the salon, and of course I will always be a full-time mother and wife :) I find myself feeling a bit of accomplishment but at the same time I want to crawl in a dark hole and just let these next two years pass by. I know this sounds crazy, but as much as I am stressed I also find some kind of weird peace in being so incredibly busy. Tonight was my women's bible study, which I look forward to every week, and I had to miss on a day which I probably needed it most. My morning started off by waking up late, my phone ringing during my first class (which is a big no no!), crying, getting my kiddos, going to the doctor because Charlie decided to get a rash all over his body and inside his mouth...(pretty gross, but poor baby), hanging out at walgreens for an hour waiting on prescriptions then coming home to my incredible family. I missed a great night with my ladies group, but I enjoyed being able to stay home and take care of and hang out with my boys. I find it amusing that in times of stress, whatever it may be, Justin seems to always remind me how blessed and happy we are as a family. There are times when I can not understand how I deserve such amazing blessings in my life. I am reminded a wee bit of how much we are loved by God when I look at my children and I know how much I love them... and God's love for us is so so much greater. It is crazy but incredible. I love the craziness we all endure in this lifetime, as God brings us to hard times I used to sit and almost grieve, now I find myself looking forward to see how it all turns out. I am anxious to see how God is going to show us his love and faithfulness, how he will bring us through anything if we let him. My family and I are so busy right now, we are broke, we have no time to do anything, but we have so much love. It is some of the small things in life that are HUGE... I wouldn't trade my crazy life for anything. Hopefully I'll write again sooner than later. :)
Thank you Lord for showing me a glimpse of your love through this life.
